Please remember that nobody in the different forums at PC can help you with a diagnose. We can point at what it looks like from our point of view, but only a pdoc can do the diagnostic work (interviews that the doctor has used may years to know how to do and to interpret, perhaps tests etc).

You have to go to a Psyciatrist to get the right diagnose and treatment. (Please stop referring to me around in any forum. We all try to help each others here, but we can only suggest that perhaps ... If we are quoted without knowing, perhaps we will become scared and stop helping). A GP can set a tenteative diagnose for you and then the Pdock do the rest.

Please remember that you are not a Psychiatrist yourself (I say this kindly and well meant ). It is important that you learn about your disorder, but first you have to be diagnosed of a person qualified to do so.

Take time to "digest" that you probably have a serious disorder that will be with you for perhaps the rest of your life and to also "digest" that a formal diagnose is not the end of the world (whatever that diagnose is). Find a relaxation program and try to relax as best you can while waiting for your correct and formally made diagnose, so not all this worrying about what it is become some sort of a trigger to you. It will be much more productive if you think about your "talents" with regard to trust and cooperation with a pdoc. Honesty in a relationship between a doctor and his patient is alfa and omega for a good result.

As far as I know, one only needs one episode of Mania to get a Bipolar I diagnose, and, also as far as I know, many people only have only one episode. When that diagnose is made it is a diagnose forever. One do not "fall down" to another diagnose afterward.

Be well!