ECHOES, I don't think I'm censoring my thoughts on the billing policy from T. What do you think I need to share with T on this topic that I haven't? We already discussed this issue last time (and have on other occasions too) so I don't feel like anything has been censored. ?? It seems like it's been dealt with and is minor compared to other things we have never discussed, haven't discussed recently, or have dealt with inadequately--things where my need is much greater. Unfortunately, sessions are only 50 minutes long, and I try--not always successfully--to make the best use of this time that I can, by being in the moment, letting myself go where my need is greatest, etc.

As I wrote before, for the first time ever, I just sent a long, revealing email to T, in which I shared with him some things I had not shared with him face to face, important things. It was a big deal to me that I did that--it took some bravery to click on "send." I guess I was being too quick to pat myself on the back, because now I read that I am censoring myself and being unfair to my T. I think I need to take a break.