Ok. So I think I have a problem. Through my breakup, I have called countless psychics to gain insight and answers. I have spent hundreds of dollars so far, and keep calling different ones to get to the truth. Some of them contradict each other, so I keep trying different advisors to see which direction it weighs in the most. Meaning, if most psychics are saying X rather than Y, I will believe that the truth is X.

I cannot seem to help myself. I know I am over spending and accruing debt that I will now have to pay down, but I can't stop. I want answers. I want the truth. I need to know for my own peace of mind.

In a way, I view this as my therapy and therefore, money well spent. In another way, I know I am being foolish and should probably gain peace of mind by myself. But I cannot seem to do this. I was SO hurt through this breakup. I have to say, that they ARE helping me to feel better. It's the only thing that IS helping me to improve, aside from my individual therapy sessions.

I just wish I could stop and stop spending money. It feels like an addiction. It's like I rationalize it to myself --- oh, I'll just call ONE more and then I'll stop.