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Old Nov 05, 2017, 01:40 PM
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Originally Posted by golden_eve View Post
Ok. So I think I have a problem. Through my breakup, I have called countless psychics to gain insight and answers. I have spent hundreds of dollars so far, and keep calling different ones to get to the truth. Some of them contradict each other, so I keep trying different advisors to see which direction it weighs in the most. Meaning, if most psychics are saying X rather than Y, I will believe that the truth is X.

I cannot seem to help myself. I know I am over spending and accruing debt that I will now have to pay down, but I can't stop. I want answers. I want the truth. I need to know for my own peace of mind.

In a way, I view this as my therapy and therefore, money well spent. In another way, I know I am being foolish and should probably gain peace of mind by myself. But I cannot seem to do this. I was SO hurt through this breakup. I have to say, that they ARE helping me to feel better. It's the only thing that IS helping me to improve, aside from my individual therapy sessions.

I just wish I could stop and stop spending money. It feels like an addiction. It's like I rationalize it to myself --- oh, I'll just call ONE more and then I'll stop.

I believe that here there is a more important question to answer: why do you want to know the “truth” (which is your wording as I am not sure if I agree with the concept but that is irrelevant to my point). Why are you not comfortable with the unknown of the current tragedy? I think it might help to dig into the depth of why you are spending some much money in search for the “truth”? Can you try to focus on experiencing this tragedy for what it is and try to fight the urge to learn more about the future or the truth? Can you learn to be comfortable with not knowing? In life very few things are in out control. And this is one of them. You are experiencing something very tragic and impactful. Embrace the unknown and the unknowable.
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