I feel like a failure. At everything. With everyone. I'm not even strong enough to *attempt* to not SI. And I have an appt with my pdoc next week.... I'm scared she's going to want to see... she mentioned me possibly showing her last time we met.. I've never shown anyone before

I just want to curl up into a ball and hide from everyone... i'm good at hiding. Especially from my family. I'm so far out of their reach now... I learnt that last night

I don't even know what to say anymore... I need some serious help...............