I think the past has given you the answer if you would just be willing to see it. He knows you have problems, but he is willing to stick it out for you. I do not know of anyone who would do the same for me. So let him take care of himself and make his own decisions. I do not think you should try to make them for him.

“I know it's often I want to divorce him usually when I'm really sick.”

“I know we're awesome together when we're well.”

Make decisions when you have a sound mind. You will be able to see and understand your situation much much better.

Take care.