i really hope someone answers this... i need anyone right now....

i had my session with T today. the beginning of it i was telling a story of something that happened to me, and it had us both laughing. i didn't really have anything in mind to talk about, and somehow we got into talking about babysitting and that my T used to be a nanny! anyway, then we got to talking about how i wish this woman i know was my mom. because she cares for me and loves me. but she lives far away, so lately things have been distant. we talked about how i don't want necissarily HER to be my mom, just people LIKE her. Even my T. T said that little kids have said to her before that they wished she was their mom. i wish that too but i didnt say it. anyway, most of the session went by and T new i had work right after. at literally the last minute of session, T said something that hit me hard. something about how the reality of that woman being my mom is not there. since this woman used to be my step mother, i looked down and said, "well she used to be" and MY EYES FILLED UP WITH TEARS! sorry, its just so unlikely that i cry infront of T (obviously from my first post) but it was the last minute of session. i looked down and T paused for 5 seconds or so and then said, "well you should be getting to work." then she tried to get my mind off of what my feelings were by asking me my plans for the weekend, and then i left. If she would have given me any longer i would have been crying. or if she had probed me any more, tears would have come. i'm SO MAD it happened at the last minute, and usually she would extend it 10 minutes or so because i knew she didn't have another client. Now i'm wondering if she stopped because she knew i had work and she KNEW i was about to cry, and she didn't want me to get any worse, or that time was just up and there was a slight silence (because i was about to cry, and she didn't realize it) but the fact that she tried to lighten the mood by asking me what im doing this weekend kinda makes me think she realized she hit an emotion and i was upset. so i left the session upset, i had to go to work, now i'm home and i not only wanna cry because of what she said, but i wanna cry because i feel like she pushed me away right when i needed her the most. what i've always wanted...to cry infront of T. and it would have happened. i feel like she abandoned me. what do i do now, how do i survive until monday