Cheekiebird: Thanks. My boyfriend tells me that as well, he also says that while he knows that my parents love me very much, I should take them in small doses because of how much they stress me out. Especially my mother, who has the tendency to just say some harsh things without really meaning to.

But I think you're right...it's just been so much so fast. This past year has been insane, leaving my husband, finding my boyfriend, transferring, meeting his parents, him meeting my parents, talking about marriage in a few years, getting out of the military, upcoming surgery...just a lot of stuff.

And yes, I am afraid of it all going away. My biggest fear is that he'll find someone prettier and much better and leave me. With my ex, it was always as if there was someone out there that he'd rather be with, but he was with me because I was 'the wife'.

It's mostly my insecurity. I can't compare my boyfriend to my ex, they're COMPLETELY different people. Total opposites from each other.

But it's so strange, laughing as much as I do, and being actually happy. It's like I'm waiting for something to come and crush me down. I dunno.

Recently, we had a discussion about relationships. I told him that I was scared of being too dependent on him. He currently makes more money than me and received a nice bonus for re-enlisting in the military so he's doing well money-wise and has been helping me a lot fiancially. When I get out in a few months he wants me to not work, just relax, for a month or so before I go back to school full time to get my business education. I told him that being so dependent on him fiancially frightened me because what if things don't work out?

I could tell he was hurt; here was a man who said he wanted to marry me, how could I think that things wouldn't work? But I was honest with him and I said that after my last relationship, it made me see just how fragile the future can be. He said that it was sad that I felt that way, because he knows that he wants to be with me forever.

I felt bad, because I never want to hurt him, but I can't really feel any differently. It's all terribly frustrating sometimes.