I can take it out of the bottle, I can sit and stare at it and even fidget with it. I can bring myself to actually take this pill.

That's what I'm dealing with right now. I'm just trying to will myself to take it. It shouldn't be this hard. Should it? Should I be this opposed to taking this stuff when I know it helps with things that nothing else has helped? Yes, I hate the side-effects, but I can't say that that's my issue with taking the damn meds.

Why is this so hard?

Does anyone know what I'm talking about? How do you deal with this?