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Originally Posted by Hopingtrying
 PS I assume you fell in love with your bf because he has some good qualities too! Try to resist thinking about you relationship in black and white. End of life care is so tough. You must at least take a small break from it--you are in crisis/majorly depressed and need to take some sort of action. "Selfishly" taking time for yourself is what you need to do. I am not sure how but there must be some way! Do you think you need to admit you are addicted to the vicodin? |
No, I don't.
When I was in partial hospitalization in 2004, the psychiatrist tried to say I was an alcoholic. I wasn't. Peers in the program who were alcoholics/drug users understood that I wasn't. My boyfriend - who would know the difference - told the doctor that I wasn't. I come right out and explain what's wrong and I never get believed. People want to always change the subject. Like whatever I say doesn't matter. I'm the one who has been living this life, but why do people have to second guess me - like I'm hiding something. I ask for help and I'm not hiding anything. There is no reason to.
It's futile to tell anyone anything. People get distracted by some detail and spin it into more than what it is. They turn away from the main problem that I try to point to. It's like I'm talking to walls.