I am considering one person. We are close but it's just that I always find myself with out words. I need help figuring out what the heck I'm trying to say. I know that "i feel terrible. suicidal thoughts. I want it but I have no clue why" but I feel like nobody will have anything to say to it. meh i'm running around in circles here...circles and boxes that's all anything ever is anymore. I'm getting closer to maybe talking...to just one friend...maybe...

in the meantime I just keep coming back here...thank you all...