Before starting therapy (so nearly 1 month ago now!) I was in the midst of a depressive episode, I was thinking about suicide every day for different reasons. I found my therapist quickly and without waiting this time, and I hanged on because of this. At first I thought, no I cant kill myself now that i'm in therapy, if I kill myself my therapist will never know this since he doesn't know my family or my social circle...so if I disappear, he wont be able to find me.
And even now, I like him as a therapist, I trust him and these days I thought about hurting myself or end my life for example, but I thought about him and it's like I'm staying alive because of him.
I know I should stay alive for myself but it's hard right now...so I'm holding onto him. I dont know if this is a common thing...I dont want to be too dependant, but to be honest he's the only reason Im not killing myself (another reason is that I dont want to leave my cat alone xD).