I really don't care:

Natural
Murder
Accidental
Suicide

It's all the same. End of life. End of pain. End of misery. End of chaos.

I'm tired of it. So tired. Tired of being the patsy. Tired of being the "emotional punching bag". Tired of being the strong one. Tired of being the one with all the answers. Tired of being the "bad guy". Tired of being the "wrong one". Tired of being the "perfect one". Tired of being the one to make sure everyone is happy. Tired of being the one who always fails. Tired of being the one so full of contradictions in my life that no one believes, sees, nor understands. Tired of being the one that has no one and yet needs everyone but is told she only deserves herself. Tired of being alone. Tired of hurting. Tired of being hurt. Tired of caring - or even trying to care.

I'm just tired.

Death - death would give me rest.