Thank you for saying this bc I can tell you care - but I really do crave death.

The difference is I am not planning to do it or imagining ways I could. Those would be ideation. I am not there - yet. But cravings - yes, I am there. If someone were to break into my house and tell me they were about to end my life - I would not fight them..as long as they did not also harm my dogs or my husband. If I felt my car become out of control n there was nobody else about - I would let it run its course. If I knew I was medically dieing, I would just allow it. Suicide though - I cannot "yet" do, but the end result - IF successful, would be the same, so in that way would not matter.

This is what I mean.

I have become so tired, I no longer care for life.