I have multiple prolonged traumas in my entire life and I was diagnosed by my psychiatrist with C-PTSD, because I have been through early childhood neglect, sexual abuse, relentless bullying, family separation, frequent displacements and domestic violence. Living with C-PTSD is like how it seems like the trauma will never stop. I am living it with Major Depressive Episode also.

How does living in C-PTSD feels like?

The slightest thing around me triggers the memories of my trauma. I just could not move. There is not a safe place anywhere, not even a person whom I could trust anymore. I have a need to keep a distance away from the people whom are closest to me and even my own home, as I have no sense of belonging and security. My mind stays hyper-vigilant all the time. Everyone around me poses a threat to me, even those who appears to only have good intentions, to the point that I cannot have any relationships at all, because even the slightest of rejection from others would hurt me emotionally, whether it was done intentionally or unintentionally. I am not only paranoid, but hypersensitive also, for the slightest of sound, touch, sight, movement, thought and utterance would hurt me.