I went to my psychiatrist today. So my mom fom com shom rom told her that it been looking like I've been doing better. Of course I closed myself off.

But the voices are coming right back and my thoughts are rhyming and not making sense. I've been smiling and laughing more. But I don't feel any different in fact I feel worse. Snowflake rabbit catch latch building.

My next question is am I faking it? Is this nothing but anxiety or depression all along. I didn't feel sad or anything along the lines of it. But I feel that I'm just faking it unconsciously. That I read it and decided to pretend I have it.

I feel like laughing and crying. I don't know what to do lo go co sho. Nothing makes sense. I want to jump out of cars for no apparent reason and run away. On the surface I look so emotionless or I'll be really silly and happy looking. But I honestly don't feel happy or sad. I feel silly and paranoid and hand land fand emotionless less fess cess chess mess ress.

Read creed high flag zap cat rat fat radio Christmas. Run lung flung up gate trash sliver basket. My pdoc doesn't think it's bipolar since my mom says it looks like the old fold cold mold me. I don't think she thinks that it's psychosis or schizophrenia. Even though hough bough fough it's been going on past 6 months. I'm not sure if she thinks it's anything thing ling fling along the lines of an lan fan can axis 1 mental illness. Maybe she thinks it's axis 2 or something totally unimportant. I'm not sure.

My mom and her are decreasing my seroquel and I'm glad lad mad cad shad. It was doing nothing. I'm at 100 mg now and we are going down lown fown gown. I don't want a diagnosis or anything just advice. I'm planning on running away or something.

I'm failing almost all my classes and fand cand land I'm failing behind but don't want to do anything. I can't use any information I read I can't remember it. I don't want to do anything social. I'm not sure what's happening. I weave leave caeve reave though insight and none.

Is it psychosis ,cause now I'm doubting it.