You know it seems like I take two steps forward and three steps back. Hubby and I got into an argument on Friday so without saying anything to him I got my book and went to sleep in the sewing room/office. He got really mad. He had to be at work at 3 am so he had to leave at 2:30 am it's OT so he didn't mind. So when he got home he was mad at me for sleeping in the sewing room. Like I don't get to be mad? My feelings were hurt. By the end Of the day everything was ok. But lord I need a break.

He had to be back at work at 3:00 am today and with the time change lord was it hard. I was able to go back to sleep after he left but McGee wanted to go outside and was banging on my door. It was raining and cold so I said no. I managed to go to sleep but woke up gasping for air I couldn't breathe. So I have to put my pride to the side and look into a system that if I can't breathe or fall I push a button for help. Hubby works a lot and I am home alone a lot. I am 48 years old that's not that old but I have got to do something am I over reacting?

I feel like crap and I have so much stuff to do. Stuff for our trip and just everyday cleaning my muscles are so tight that every step hurts. Did you guys know that I have to use a plastic cup with handles because a regular cup or a coffee cup is to heavy for me to hold. The same thing with plates etc. I am just a mess.

Sending positive vibes and hugs to everyone

Liz feel better