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dear, i know that's such a sad realization...i know too well. and i know as i'm writing this that it doesn't help your pain. someone relating to something that deep just doesn't help the pain. the pain that is at the core of being, cannot be reached by anyone but self. nurture that hurting child. allow those that will to love her now. re-learn love, value and appreciation. allow yourself to cry for what has passed, but know that it was them who were wrong...you were an innocent born into that. i can't answer the why of that. i have that same question. i only know it's for a reason.

i'll share with you what a wise man once said to me when i asked why i was born into and allowed to happen to me what did. he said, "i can't answer that, except to say that because of it you are the most compassionate soul i know. maybe you went through that because your soul is strong enough to tolerate it and the world needed you as you are today...compassionate and healing. if you'd not gone through that you would not be capable of helping the people that you have helped." in some ways, on some days, that helps me.

ww, you know what i suffer and for that i'm sorry. however, i'm very glad you're in this world making the differences that you're making. i love you for it.

kd