I have a tough time as well. I haven't figured out exactly what it is. Some people say I build up walls, others say I push away (I can be blunt or whatever), and I feel that I'm not very good mixing in with other people. I recognize that I don't fit in well. I'm still working on it. I have learned, however, to be pretty okay with being by myself. I look forward to it, and for the most part, it doesn't defeat me.

So, as I continue to learn to gain more footing in the social arena, I guess I will learn to be satisfied being with myself.