Thank you for your replies.

My thread post was one of those that I️ wasn’t 100% myself.

I’m pretty sure it came from my question about being afraid of the dark.

I’ve read the replies several time today and tried to sort out what that part of me was looking for.

Safety, as always, is the main thing.

I️ guess there is this hope that there is a feeling of safety outside of my counselors office.

Example.

I️ love yoga. I️ feel strong when I️ am in a class and feeling centered during the class.

Then. Then the last part of the time comes and I’m supposed to lay on my back. Relax. CLOSE MY EYES and breathe and be at peace.

IM TOTALLY FREAKING OUT!

I️ can’t relax. My feet are twitching. I’m shutting my eyes because that’s what I’m supposed to do.

NOT!

It feels so safe with my counselor to close my eyes now and feel
Ok.

Really ok.

I️ guess my question is, “Will I️ heal enough to be safe and ok outside of that space?”

There seems to be so much weight on this question to me.

Is that a normal thing for someone who has been through what I️ have experienced?

You find ONE place that is safe and freak out because you worry that something is wrong.

You won’t be able to find safety like that because it’s never been there until now.

But.

You want it.

You want to feel safe, in realistic ways, with other people.

This is very real to me and I️ thank you for your replies again.

Any thoughts are welcomed.