Crypts, I understand. I welcome death, I'm not chasing it but I wouldn't run from it either. I saw a movie this weekend and a character died from a heartattack, I thought " Lucky SOB" I am also a Christian so I know where I am bound after death and I would so much rather be there than here. I understand the exhaustion, the never ending trudge through a seemingly endless mire of hopelessness with no site of rosey future. I hope you find a sunny spot in your day today and hold on to it tightly, sometimes it's the little things that give one more day meaning.