I have a plan to sell my home in the next year or two. I am practical about looking at what is the best way for me to live. Problems are so much simpler if I decide what looks good to me instead of considering everyone's fears. I would like to see who I am.
When I sit and listen to my ex try and bully and manipulate and muddy the waters, I am amazed I sat there for twenty seven years. Still, it is scary and lonely making plans by myself. Sometimes I feel like a caveman in some areas that I haven't worked on because I have been too busy reacting to life. And it still hurts when my kids react like I am clearing them as well as all our junk out of my house so I don't have to live like a hoarder. I look at my kitchen and my room and the bathroom, all neat and orderly and smile every time I go in there.