(((((((((onlymedid)))))))))))))

You are not a failure. You are human. We all do things we regret. I'm sorry it got to that point, but don't feel badly about yourself. You just get up and try again. I made it that long the last time and messed up as well, and it's hard to see how things will get better - but they will, I promise you.

I'm sorry you feel like crap, as long as you know you're NOT crap - remember that. It's okay to be where you're at right now emotionally.

Take care of yourself. You're strong. You're cared about here, no matter what.