I have been feeling very unmotivated as well. It's very frustrating. I know what you mean by the internal push. I am not getting much done either. I do care, so it can be baffling. My energy is so deflated. I am just trying my best to take care of the basics, eating, sleeping on a schedule, etc. Not doing so good with showering, embarrassing but true. Hang in there. Try not to beat yourself up about not feeling well.