OP here, I've definitely settled in to a 5-7 day ultrarapid cycle with periods of high instability. Trying to get my pdoc appointment moved up but it's next week anyway. My life is quite disrupted right now, I should have a relatively chill period between November 10 and December 15 or so if no additional random BS happens, so I guess we'll have to see if whatever the pdoc and I change, works, during that period, because after that I'm probably going to be traveling for a few weeks to avoid a toxic situation around the holidays where I live. It's better for my mental health to crash on friends' couches (as I am doing right now, one of the toxic elements also scheduled a visit for Halloween) than stay where I live during that time. But I am REALLY not looking forward to having med flux during that so hopefully we find something that is better at this next appointment. Otherwise maybe I'll go back on zyprexa - AGAIN - for a month or two because at least it keeps me stable, even though it does nothing for the depression. Being around my friends I haven't seen in 5 years will probably keep me from getting too depressed during that month.