There are just so many. And no, most of them...no. Most of them have blocked me, or don't want to speak to me. Or it's been so long ago, that I wouldn't have a clue how to get a hold of them. Or I don't even really remember their name, just what I did.

My aunt, my father, and my stepmother want nothing to do with me. I don't know that this is entirely my fault, but after a long childhood of rejection it is like, the bottom row of Jenga blocks that got pulled out. You know? I just can't seem to put the blocks back together. My half-sisters (whom I just met about 8 years ago) want a relationship with me (long story) but after this rejection, I can't seem to bring myself to do it. And like I said, I know it isn't all my fault. But it overshadows everything in my life.