When people that care about you tell you what they are seeing, you need to listen, because maybe you can't recognize the change because you are so involved in the emotions. Yep I agree, I hate that I need them but I do. Not taking them causes more pain on me and people I care about. Already have enough to deal with without me causes issues for myself, ya know? We don't have to like the meds, but we do need them and must take them (as prescribed)Are you listening?