Crypts, I completely understand everything you have said. You have endured a lot and the thought of having to endure more is unfathomable , I get that and I am right there with you, even though I haven't gone through what you have. I am glad that I made you chuckle, not everyone would to something like that. I understand that when financially you can't do what everyone says you need to do makes it even worse, it can seem like the hole is getting deeper and deeper. Keep talking to me, we may not have traveled the same path but we are at the same point now, I am going to friend request you and I hope you accept.