i got triggered... started feeling really bad about relationships and being alone...
didnt want to really go out but i wanted to get high..

the girl i been talking to was goin to spend the weekend in a hotel with a couple guys and it just made me feel like a piece of **** and all i could think to say without cursing her out and making myself look like a jealous douche bag confused about her intentions i just said i hope you have fun and she stopped messaging and so i just left and started doing meth and weed and i just got back yesterday... so i guess i been without meds for like... 4 or 5 days... effexor, topamax, bloodpressure meds...

think i became psychotic... think everyone that saw me is going to think i have something seriously wrong with me... like multiple personalities...

i dont want them to think that... why did i have to forget my medicine...?

now i have a big problem to clean up... and people probably thinking i am schizophrenic or multiple personality...

i was shut down so bad i couldnt function... vision problems... my mind was just warped... confusion... i couldnt communicate... im so embarrassed i just want everyone to understand that its because i was withdrawing from the stupid medications....