I USE to read books and journal write to keep my mine occupied. LIsten to music that makes you feel good or inspires you. If you can read, I highly recommend any of the Chronicles Of Narnia books by C. S. Lewis.: The Magician's Nephew, The Lion the Witch and The Wardrobe, The Horse and His Boy (my favorite), Prince Caspian: The Return of Narnia, The Voyage of the Dawn Treader, The Silver Chair, and The Last Battle. You could always have someone read this book, if possible. Singing is another idea.

Hope you get better. I am in the worst state of mind. So much pain. So many feelings changing over and over. Even won't eat unless someone who knows me makes sure I do. God protect you. Wish I could talk to someone I don't personally know like you. You gave gone through so much and I feel I could trust you.