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Old Nov 08, 2017, 01:30 PM
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Does anyone find that after suffering the first trauma that gave them PTSD that they are more highly susceptible to experiencing further trauma?

My initial trauma dates back to my childhood and upbringing in an abusive family. But then, I have found myself twice now in very hostile and toxic work environments that seriously traumatized me to the point of having nightmares and triggering dissociative episodes.

I was laid off from my job in July, and I am suing for discrimination, because there was blatant discrimination against me because of my PTSD. But lately, my nightmares about that place, which was highly toxic, have been intensifying. I'll have dreams where I either relive the firing or run into my ex-boss in public. In all these dreams, I end up going off on her, telling her what a horrible person she is, exposing her for all the lies she has told...etc. And while, in a way that should make me feel good, it doesn't because it means she has gotten the better of me. She has caused me to lose control. She's a troll and you don't feed trolls. The second you do, they pounce back with even more because that's what they want, to see you lose it. I'm trying to let my lawsuit speak for itself, and if I have to go public with my evidence, I will.

I've also been having intensified nightmares about my abusive father.

Is it possible that working through that abusive, hostile, toxic environment retraumatized me?

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Primary Dx: C-PTSD and Severe Chronic Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder
Secondary Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder with mild Agoraphobia.

Meds I've tried: Prozac, Zoloft, Celexa, Effexor, Remeron, Elavil, Wellbutrin, Risperidone, Abilify, Prazosin, Paxil, Trazadone, Tramadol, Topomax, Xanax, Propranolol, Valium, Visteril, Vraylar, Selinor, Clonopin, Ambien

Treatments I've done: CBT, DBT, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS), Talk therapy, psychotherapy, exercise, diet, sleeping more, sleeping less...
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