oinky oink... i know.. you get frustrated and angry and hurt. i do hear that too. It's ok to feel those things. i know that the day you can accept how much he cares will be a huge step for you. Right now i think you know it but can't believe it, think it, feel it or rely on it. i know from my own thing that it's %#@&#! scary when the world had rules that you knew inside out and then somebody comes along and shakes up the snowdome and refuses to do what the rules say. Now what do we do? i don't know any other rules.

hope you have a good day my dear oink oink oink. i hope their is a ray of sunshine that brightens your day... one that leaves it's mark on your mood.