I know this is such a hard hard thing for you to deal with... But do keep in mind you have been improving your life and coping with getting a good handle on yourself.

Would it be nice to have a date that night? Of course ... But I will say I was single for 5 years after my first marriage ended and went to numerous parties solo with a bunch of couples , I actually had a great time, as I knew for a fact that many of those people would have rather been solo instead of with a SO.

Your doing well with IOP You can handle the holidays and Birthday solo if it comes down to that.

You would be found and helped if you were to fall but you would already be getting yourself up off that ground , You are stronger than you think .