To start off, this has been going on since I was a kid. I have been off in these little “mind adventures” for as long as I can remember. There are certain things I think of when I think about certain things. Even the most random things, like the mall. For the mall, I used to imagine an endless store or whatever. When i would go shopping with my mom and her friend as a kid, i would be in this thought process the whole time. I was so “out there.” I was like the kid who always kept his head down, and was really shy. Today, I’m so much more different. I feel like I’ve become this person who I was forced into being. I don’t feel like myself. My solution to this is, of course, escapism, which can really take a toll on my emotional state. I will almost cry because of the way reality is, and I feel like like I’m never going to make it through life. When I go to school, I’m not ever, fully there. I just feel like I’m acting through everything, like school is just something that i need to survive through everyday. I don’t really enjoy being with my friends, in fact, when I come home from school, I stay inside the rest of the day. That’s how it is on the weekends too. Please, if you can give me any suggestions, that would be great.