There was a lot today. I was struck by how she had some really insightful things to say. Ways of thinking about things that hadn't occurred to me.

Apparently I engage in a lot of black and white thinking. It makes sense, but never really talked to anyone about it before. That brought up the concept of dialectical thinking. She gave me homework. Ugh.

I stated to get overwhelmed at the end of session. I felt like she was throwing the spaghetti at the wall a little bit. Figure out what might resonate with me. But every recommendation she made just raised my anxiety level.

She asked specifically if I'd ever tried those adult coloring books. I don't have any, so she said, "are you interested? Do you want a few blank pages?" In that moment I thought of RoboT. I thought I don't want anything from V. I don't want her to care about me. I don't want to be close to anyone. Not anymore.

I said with about 5 minutes left that I needed to be done. She asked if there's anything I needed from her. Was I going to be okay?

Such an open question. Am I going to be okay?