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Old Nov 09, 2017, 03:13 AM
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Originally Posted by CepheidVariable View Post
I'm sorry for your long struggle, abusedtoy.

I seem to recall from seeing another post of yours that you are in therapy, so I know you are probably working through your current thinking there.

Relationships and friends can be painful and scary, I know. Maybe it's enough just to talk a little for now.

PC is a pretty supportive environment.
CV, no one wanted me for most of my life. I have been friendless for most of my life also, humiliated. I have been thinking in my next appointment with my T, telling her that I never had such attention as what was received and will receive from her, because in the room, all the attention was on me and it feels so uncomfortable...it feels so bad that I am the centre of attention and all she was looking at was me and me alone. I never thought that anyone would want me, would want to talk to me or even think well of me. My feelings / reactions are amplified with interactions with others. I get hurt at the slightest of things, due to the trauma. I told her that I feel invisible before all others, like I do not exist. Then, one day, my T said: "No, you are not invisible. What I see now, is that you are visible in front of me." It was quite gentle of her.
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Official Psychiatric Dx.
Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Complex Dissociative Identity Disorder
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