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Originally Posted by FallDuskTrain
I agree. It is a very scary stage to process. Similar transition happened to me when I was 13. I had tried to take my life away but survived. And that incident was followed by other traumas.
Honestly, I have been under the impression that this death and injury of spirit happens to majority of the teenagers and that it is not a big deal (may be the society made me believe that. ? )
I am now 40 years old and the death and rebirth have become a second nature to my spirit.
It is a very scary and a lonely process.
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You are not alone, FDT. I am so sorry to hear about your suicide attempt and the traumas that followed after that, but am so glad that you have survived.
The way I describe about my death is a death caused by trauma, while yes, I do agree that teenagers kind of develop their sense of identity and personalities in this changing stage, though, it would not be a death caused by trauma...
So, I died 7 years ago when I was 15. It was beyond just "feeling", but it is extremely profound, indescribably vast and maximal the emptiness within me, the pain beyond overwhelming, in sheer agony, the heart, the spirit broke apart and bled and died. Just as there is a "physical death", there is a "spiritual death", so just as there is "physical pain and trauma" there is also "spiritual pain and trauma" or "emotional pain and trauma". Again, it can be FELT. She was dead, never can be revived.