So, I'm just reading this today and I know we don't really know each other but I have read other posts of yours and I see others here saying that you are a kind and caring person, so I vote with the majority here. I believe that we let others down sometimes and make poor choices but you can decide to not make those choices, I sense you are a good person, and going forward you will fail and fail again, it's what we humans do but to say you are no good is not true at all.