Feeling very unsettled right now and highly triggered right now.

I had four best friends I haven't spoken to in around 6 months. I met up with one of them today after she sent me a message on monday. We were slowly drifting apart. And it was so hard to see how i hurt her by posting something passive aggressively. Things aren't going to be the same.

I'm down to one session a week and want to talk to R- I just want him to comfort me even though I don't deserve it.I don't feel like I can contain my feelings without hurting myself until thursday. Would I be wrong to email him asking for an appointment tomorrow even if I had to pay extra? Or am I just being ridiculous and dramatic. I just know that this is going to affect my studying weekend.