I'm 52 and been at the same company for 18 years. I've climbed the ladder and am at a high level. However, I question my ability to lead at the level I'm at. Anxiety and Depression have plagued me for most of my life. I've self medicated with alcohol and pot off and on but presently have been clean for several months. I've also been prescribed meds from my Dr which currently are helping very much. My job is just a job to me even though it more than pays the bills I don't have a passion for it. I've procrastinated my way into a bad spot where I'll have a new boss soon and I'll have very little to show him. My counterpart just gave his notice so now I'll have to cover his role on top of mine. I feel close to a breaking point. I have two kids and a great wife who need me to support them. I have to make this work but have zero drive. I'm afraid, very afraid of cracking up again.