I guess I just wanted someone to listen to me and not judge me, I felt like I was being judged.......I know what I do is wrong, after the fact, but when I am in that dark place no....I don't get it!! I don't want him to cuddle me, I just want him to understand and not get that defense up.........I want him to help me work through it, not make it worse........setting up the next appt yesterday, he was like, so do you want another appt or do you want to just wait and see!!! what ever!!