Ok, Let me just say this...ok. I have also been threw hell...but im still here..am i not? I am 23 yrs old. 2 girls and married to somoene that just can't understand a dang thing about me or my pain. I understand what you all are going threw..been there done that. My point is only that to over come this...and maybe not everyone...but most of you can do this on your own. I have learned that...but i have also learned at hard times you do need someone there. Not all the time everyday. Then coming here is like another addiction. The more we hear others stories here the more we COULD maybe become confused about our dx. If your around negative all the time how does it help? doesn't it kinda just make you more negative? For example, if someone you know is pissed off all the time wouldn't you become angery as well if it was none stop everyday. Its almost contagous. If you are around someone more posative then would someone that smiles and laughs all the time help you become that way even more? they are my thoughts at time. I am sorry if my post offended anyone...but i really think that to get better you have to learn to accept you dx and everything and then go from there to reconize the problems to prevent or change them MAYBE. i understand that things take time...a long time in fact. But i have analized myself to the point i notice everything going on with me almost. And no im not well right now either...which s one reason why im bein so pissy lol. I am trying hard to fight it and make it go away or ignore it. I have been hiding in games to escape my reality and it didn't work. I now have drama in my game and irl. I feel like im a F up. but im still workin threw it and i refuse to give in to my mental issues. I fight hard to try and get healthier. when i wrote that i was a little upset. I apolgize...during this time i become moody fast. I read something where one of you said that maybe you can't get better, Is there somthing to that? no there isn't a cure...and i beleave we all can get better..you just have to want to bad enough..maybe im wrong. I can't speak for everyone..i know that. But fight hard to get better for yourself and the ones you love most. I fight hard for my kids...i love them to death and i would hate to see them like me. I try hard to stay posative around them...its not always easy. I wanted to say thanks to everyone that has replied..sorry again if i triggered you.I am a bit to outspoken and open minded.