I just went to meetings & listened to others speak. My sponsor is an old professor who asks a lot of questions & points out hypocrisies when he detects them in meetings. He pulls no punches, & doesn't treat the Big Book like it's some infallible text like the Bible. He's somewhat of a rebel in AA circles...but I didn't like authority figures much anyways, so we we got/get along fine. When he agreed to sponsor me, he had me read a book called A New Pair of Glasses by Chuck C. You should Google it & find some descriptions of the content. It's a pretty revolutionary look at the program. Chuck C. gave seminars called, "Don't Take Yourself So ****** Seriously." Here's an excerpt from one of his talks...I hope the link works: