Last week after coming out of hospital after being ill I was very depressed and felt suicidal . it was so bad I really thought it was never going to pass and that I would feel that way forever . I tried to get support from professionals but they didn't help at all. My sister helped a little, I phoned her everyday and she just listened . I won't say I feel great now because I have a long way to go but that despair has finally passed , not sure for how long but I had thought it would never pass . I'm trying to focus on changing things in my life that I'm not happy with and making steps towards my goals . I hope the way you feel passes but while it is still going on keep posting and talking to us here . I want to be here for you like you are here for so many others .