Now it seems the girl i was talking to before all this mess doesnt want to talk anymore...

She said that she does but that we were talking and then i just disappeared...

She said she put up a wall or something and put it out of her mind... and that she doesnt know what to do to take it down..

I have been trying to fix it... i explained what happened to me and that i got triggered.. scared.. she just said well im not your ex.
Now she just being distant and seems like she doesn't trust me...

I ****ed everything up.... with the family i was with... their friends that saw me like that... the girls that were around when i was out.. and the girl i was trying to talk to...

She just seems to not be responding to me much... and i dont know what to do because its triggering...
She makes me feel like she wants to see that im a real guy really interested in her that isnt going to hurt her... but i dont know what to do because im trying and doesnt seem to matter... and it making me feel bad and like im just going to give up... but maybe thats what she scared of... but i need her to stop because it's hurting me and im trying my hardest to make it right... but feeling like rejected over and over is not good...

I dunno what to do... if it doesnt change today i think im not going to beable to continue... fighting...
If she doesnt want anything with me i dunno why she just doesnt say it...