i am just done with life

everytime i start to feel a little better, someone comes around and makes me feel at least 50% worse

i thought i wanted to live still, that's why i kept coming here because i dont have any IRL friends i can talk to
but you know what, it doesn't matter anymore

i am just tired of the voices, meds don't help me anymore and apparently even though i've not been suicidal or even talked about it since may 2017, i am an attention seeker because i have been suicidal for more than a day