it started when i was three years old, from what i remember. in kindergarten i would have like two close friends and i would be able to talk to them but around everyone else in the classroom i was mute and was anxious in front of the whole class and the teacher. i couldnt read out loud. im 23 and now my life is pretty much the same but i have a job. i have had panic attacks, derealization, and i dont even go grocery shopping on my own, normally.