Hi everyone!

I'm posting because I just want to see if anyone else feels the same way I do. I warn you now that this is probably going to be extremely controversial, so turn back if you don't want to see it.

My entire life I've disliked children, from when I was a child through now (19). Children themselves disgust me on such an intense level that I honestly can't describe it. The idea of pregnancy also horrifies me, I don't want a parasite feeding off of my body and moving around inside of it. Birth is supposed to be agonizingly painful, and I don't want to be held down by such a commitment.

I feel that even if I didn't mind pregnancy and children, I'd resent the child for holding me down. I have absolutely zero interest in ever having a child. I'm not trans but I wish I was born male simply because I feel so uncomfortable in my own skin because of my uterus. Thinking about the fact that it's there, and knowing what it does makes my skin crawl. My partner is a trans man, so I have no worries of pregnancy, yet this still bothers me continuously.

I can undergo voluntary surgery since I'm legally an adult. Do I have any chance of even finding a doctor that would do this for me? I've heard so many stories of women being denied because they "will change their mind in a few years". I'm so uncomfortable being fertile, I just want it to be gone so I can feel comfortable for once.