I called the clinic and spoke to the nurse.... she said that there wasn't anything the doctor could do until he got back to this office next week... so I wait for that.

as for asking for something different... believe me... I plan to... the doctor and nurse both told me though that if I wasn't better that they would put me in the hospital for safety reasons... I am a hazard to myself.

it isn't easy for me but I work on coping as much as I can... taking each day one step at a time.... not always fun but it is the only way to do things sometimes. Telling myself that the thing that is attacking me isn't real hasn't helped much but I think it makes things more difficult when the therapist tells you to quit self-diagnosing when you tell them that they're still there.... plan to be requesting a new therapist as well it seems.