Not all medications make you feel flat and emotionless. Which meds do? That varies from person to person. As a rule mood stabilizers do it more than APs but as I said it varies from person to person, there's no way to know without trying them. Since you have already experienced flat affect and weren't on any meds you might just as well try meds to see if they help.
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